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you dont need a narration. tell the voice inside your head to shut up. your guitar has stopped bleeding. you killed it yourself after the concert. but the song still remains the same. raindrops always make you sad. sunshine, makes you feel angry. it isn't a regular story. for, nothing ever happened to you could be regular. you weren't born this way. this city doesn't belong to you. you don't belong here. its a new feeling. grass has grown from your garden upto your door. its been so long since you shaved. or had a bath. memories of her are a like a ghost. a faint whisper, but you can never see it, can't touch her hands. wine. music. carosel. happiness. little dim flickering lights. your daughters' shinning blonde hair. your throat begins to dry. you pull up your car and step out.the song doesn't change. you only feel worse, like throwing up. the mountains have ended. no use jumping. your gun doesn't have bullets anymore. the knives that you carry are blunted with rust.no one can imagine what you were thinking through the pain. the pain finally seems so comforting. realizing it is just the first part, of redemption, of retribution, of revival, of reconcilation and of reversal. not possible in your case. none. the smell of tobacco and the burning sound of paper ruin your high.every drop makes an ocean. every mistake is a crime. you think you're paranoid. sitting besides a dog, seeing him pee on your front tyre. you don't even shoo him away. every drop makes an ocean. every mistake isn't a crime, is it? the dog only stares at you. with unseeing eyes, doesn't reply. doesn't go away. orange skies. you try and remember how you got here. did life get you here? or that bitch. or the other bitch! everything was going all right, she came and she ruined everything.every movie you've ever seen has ended this way. your life is about to end. and you know there is one more thing left to do. run in the fields. see a rainbow. hit a home run. save a dying man. just once. you need to get up, you have to get up. walk across the road. ask for help. not a soul in sight. just you and your bleeding spleen. your hand covers it, but doesn't cover enough. you take off your shoes. the last time your shoes got blood stained, you had a bad day. this was better. you can hear the horses. from far away. the war wasn't really over. but why were they coming for you? all you had is the key. you put in the doorknob. turn it clockwise. the door opens.at this point of time, endless possibility lay in front of you. you're not scared to open the door, but you want something to surprize you. before that you have a choice - right leg or left. you put your right foot forth. you are still wearing your shoes. you remember taking them off. you see a door diametrically opposite yours. the doorknob swerves. the door opens. you see footsteps. no shoes.you would be surprized how much you can tell about a man if you can't see his face. esspecially if he is a woman. and if she is holding a gun. your gun. her head is a gaint flashlight, blinding you. making you unable to move. she fires one round. another. you don't feel anything. she is annoyed to you see you smiling. you smile as if you were the God. the God that saved you. the flashlight comes closer to you, as if she is running towards her lover.the sight of well toned thighs in a black skirt is making you horny. you wonder if she would kneel and give you some head. but she raises her leg. to kick your nuts. hard. you collapse to the ground. who is smiling now? still you.the flashlight completely blinds you. and when you open your eyes you see the clear afternoon blue sky bathing in the sun. you try to get up but the sides of your bath tub are very slippery. white cranes and kingfishers are flying around. their sound doesn't seems to lull the pain in your testicles, rahter encourage it. your bath tub is in the middle of a beach. you aren't surprized, why would you be? a crane sits on the left edge of your bath tub. it looks a little bit like the bitch who pee-ed on your tyre. it pecks you. you start bleeding. you see the thing about hallucinations is that, you wouldn't know its really happening. but when you know a bird has poked his beak in you and you are going to die, you want your entire life to flash in front of your eyes. then what the fuck is this?i told you not to listen to me. i'm just the voice in your head

A medical documentary

Sicko (2007)

As much as I hate the sight of Micheal Moore, I cant deny liking his work. He makes films with a cause, to change something. Be it a little change, but something significant. And thats the reason why movies should be made.

And about not liking the man, I'm conventional in the the sense that I wouldn't like to watch obese people on screen. Heck! I'm obese. But I'm hooked to the stereotypes the world is stuck in. My bad.

Anyway, back to the film. Its a documentary on how the insurance companys have screwed the medical system of the United States while how socialized medicine and Universal medicine for all has changed live in countries like Canada, France and Cuba. Thank heavens he hasn't headed towards our country. Because this documentary would became an appraisal for the US Medd system if the Indian system was ever potrayed (Tada! Idea for my next short film!)

He weaves reality story in a nice way, but since it is a documentary, it should be neutral. Well, I didn't feel it was. The point that the director was trying to make was only the point of focus. The flipside, the cons, the dark side wasn't really potrayed. Narrowing of ideas is a liberty lost when one makes a documentary and not a feature film. In that department, I think, the film loses out.

Its a good watch. And a must for all the medicos.

Rate - 2/5

Here...

...Yahan (2005)

This is a very dark film. Literally, the visuals are hauntingly blue tinged and dark with jerky camera work. Its almost as if you're watching the entire film through an eye-spy camera. But thats where the beauty of the film lies. This is Shoojit Sorcar's directoral debut. I wonder why he hasn't come out with more work (maybe because this one bombed out!)

The movie is about terrorism in Kashmir, blah blah blah... But the movie definately has a soul. It is intense and powerful at times, and tender and intimate at instances (like the song ada) Jimmy Shergill, Minisha Lamba, Manoj Tiwari and Yashpal Sharma have given powerpacked and realistic performances. Infact, every actor in the film is very real. I couldn't find a tinge of artificial.

I don't know why such brilliant movies go unnoticed in this film industry while utter pieces of crap like Singh is King get so much recognition. This film is a work of art and addresses a very important issue for our country. Forget an avid movie goer, this film didn't work because of the eunuchs amongst us who feel proud by calling themselves Indian. I spit on thee!

Rate - 4/5

Same people, different lives

Billu Barber (2009)

Irrfan and Shahrukh starrer, directed by Priyadarshan, music by Pritam and special appearances by Deepika, Priyanka and Kareena - a film which turned out to be a mixed bag. Partly because of the weird combination mentioned above, and partly because the movie had this unmistakable Priyadarshan stamp on it. I think thats where it lost the battle. The storyline of this film deserved a classic treatment which was lacking.

The story of a superstars' world and the story of a barber's world. How diametrically opposite and yet branching from the same root. Fascinating concept, very well built up suspense, brilliant acting by the two Khans, but the film just lacks that special something!

Lara Dutta is probably a surpize in this movie where she plays a homely village woman, doing a far better job than her earlier attempt (Mumbai se aaya mera dost)

All in all, a very slow village-like film. Reminds me of Welcome to Sajjanpur, but lacks the Shyam Benegal touch!

Rate - 2.5/5

HOODA hell is this?

Mere khwaboon me jo aaye (2009)

Another film by a female director, but this time I wasn't that lucky. Because this installment wasn't really that good.

I mean, I really liked the concept - A woman tries to forget the problems in life by fantasizing about a hot young man who helps her out in everything except the bed (kinda like a gay best friend!) But, the treatment given to the storyline is very poor.

Randeep Hooda's character is very well written and he has done his bit very well. Infact, he makes the movie tolerable. Raima Sen is so cute and good looking, she is the sort of girl that you wish sits next to you in class and you stare at her throughout the entire lecture! She is that gorgeous.

I have nothing else to say but...

Rate - 1.5/5

bevdi...

DevD (2009)

I can't believe I havn't seen a movie for two weeks. I've been waiting for this movie to release, and watching this movie was like having an orgasm. All the pent up energy finally found a chanel to flow!

This is an absolute cult movie. Anurag Kashyap kicks ass! Smoke, Drugs, Alcohol, Sex...what more could you ask for? (Did you shout Murder?) A heartbroken, drug drowning mans' journey from one woman to another in a modern Delhi is potrayed in a classic style and verve. This is what Bollywood cinema has come up to, and I'm very happy.

This movie is like a bunch of random ideas put together. Mixing facts with fiction, weaving practical jokes and making a movie on sex is hard enough, let alone making it commercially viable. If you're in distress, if you like getting high, if you like gaudy imagery or if you appriciate real art, in its most raw form, this movie is for you!

Abhay Deol as Dev is a phenomenon. There is going to be a generation of druggies and jilted lovers who would want to look like him when they break up or when they get high! He has abso-fuckin-lutely rocked the screen with EMOSSIONAL ATTYACHAAR!

Paro and Chanda, the two women in the life of Dev...who were potrayed rather meek and submissive in the earlier versions of Sharatchandra Chattophadhya's Devdas, are evolved characters in this movie, with their own egos, whims and fancies, and sexual needs.

I fall short of words when I describe the music of this film. I've been going over the tracks again and again for over a month now, and I still can't get enough of them. Amit Trivedi has done a wonderful job with his 18 tracks.

My God, I 'm so happy I waited out for this movie, and it did not dissapoint me at all!

Rate - 4.5/5

Trivia - Anurag Kashyap's guest appearance in the movie? He is Kalki's customer before Abhay.

Steve Martin at his best!

Dirty rotten scoundrels (1988)

This movie just blew me away. I think it was one of the first comedy con movies ever made with the twist of a modern day thriller. Back in the day when Steve Martin and Micheal Caine made this film, they knew they were ahead of time, especially when it came to the ending. Of course, Micheal Caine is no stranger to controversial subjects (Blame it on Rio)

There have been so many Bollywood rip offs of this movie that I've lost count. (Khel, Andaz apna apna, etc.) But the original stays.

I would really want you to watch this movie than ruin any part of it for you. Go ahead.

Rate - 4/5